Life....

Why does life always have to be so complicated!

I have a 2nd interview because neither of us shone in the 1st! I wasn't prepared I know that also I am feeling the pressure as the favourite the job is mine to lose not win! I don't know what they want from me in the interview also I am not sure if I want it anymore - I don't have the hunger for it anymore the company has worn me down and I am feeling tired by it all!

I am rebelling but I know I will conform, I just need to get my head in the right place!

Looking forward to Saturday and dinner at Roast!

Culture and Cocktails

Had a fabby dabby time with the girls yesterday!

We were very cultured and went to the British Museum! That place is huge and absolutely stunning especially the reading room. It is so large that we only went to the Egyptian section saw the mummys and the Rossetta Stone very cultured! Managed to get a couple of good pics but the place was teeming with tourists shouldn't complain as they are improving the UK economy by being here!

After the culture did the cocktails! They were delicious you can not bet a good espresso martini in fact can't bet several - lol. Had a lovely dinner at Christopher's as well.

We were like loonies yesterday and I told a few of my secrets! The ones you already know! Tried to get into the Topshop London Fashion Week show but that didn't work! Saw no celebs either :o(

Top the evening went to the flicks and saw Valentines Day - it was ok it wasn't great and corney but a nice movie. Woah listen to me film critic now rather be a cocktail critic.

To finish the weekend get to see SP which is a bonus! He can't make next weekend but I get his cock this weekend instead :o)))))

Needing VODKA....

Oh what a shit week it has been! Work is just crap it is a juggernaut that just keeps going and is out of control! Hell it is going to be like this for the next 2 years and wonder how many of the staff will just be mowed down by the speeding truck!

At least it is the weekend tomorrow! Off out with the cousins for dinner and a few cocktails! Can't wait can sooo do a few cocktails let me think what shall have - martini, moijto, cosmopolitan or bellini! I know will just have the lot ;o)

Short and sweet today and busy couple of weeks will try and keep you updated but hey when a girl has to party she just has to party!

Definitely over RK! He isn't gonna chat again so his loss totally over the urge to ping him. Lol ;o)

That's it for now must go and start thinking about cocktails!

Playa.....

Am I turning into the female version of a male playa? Is that so bad?

I am acting with no emotion with SP and having sex because I like it! I am starting to call the shots by making the 1st play/ booty call on him! But isn't that what men do women and is it so bad that I am doing it.

After all as it was said yesterday it is healthy and fun! Why can't a women just enjoy sex for sex? We are both single and enjoying it and not hurting any one else! We don't break the law we just have fantastic sex. I am not fucking anyone else as well as SP so I suppose I am being faithful and not lost my female emotions totally. Is he shagging others as well to be honest I don't know - do I want to know? No - because it would mean that I have put my heart into this and it is not relationship where I get the hearts and flowers and his time I just get sex.

This is the kind of relationship I need right now - I have given up on finding the new love of my love! Insecurities showing again - my weight! I am too old and have my life mapped out.

Decisions....

Well interview has been done and still waiting to hear whether I have got the job! So much for them making a quick decision ;o)

RK is being a prat and thinks I don't know what he is doing on fb but hey I know there is nothing there and the stalking is for my amusement only!

SP well have a plan so I get to spend the day with him and guess what we will be doing yup you guessed it will spend the day shagging! Let's hope my plan works out ;o)

That's it for now as I am late for work because I was too busy stalkin RK this morning! LOL

Oh and I had a crap Valentine's Day! No cards, chocolates, champagne or flowers! Did I expect any uhhh NOOOOO pmsl!

Just one word............

SEX

Yup I am gonna get it tomorrow and I can't wait!!!!
SP is free and I am gonna get shagged hard and several times and I can not wait!!!!

ROLL ON TOMORROW

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Times change

Hmmm ok a couple of things to write about!

Love life - RK don't think is gonna turn into anything! Its a shame as I do like him but getting not interested vibes maybe I am just to strong minded for him he is after all 10 years younger! Keep getting the busy signal and not sure about drink so just going to leave it NO bbming until he does and just friends. He will have to give some definite signals in the future but I sense may not get another bbm from him again. I know he is going to Edinburgh next week as I said before I have done what I usually do run head first into something and commit too early - lack of confidence in body appearance! As for SP he has been very sweet and given me pep talks for tomorrow even though he was a bit of an arse on Saturday hopefully will meet on Wednesday but may have work issues because of his promotion - can't knock it for commitment. Hopefully will meet next week as RK out of picture!

Job - interview tomorrow - am I prepared probably not but I am seat of my pants girl! Will know on Friday so fingers crossed.

BBM - made a couple of new mates at the weekend, I know it was kickback by me for RK blow off! These are not serious relationships just chatting - any hint of rudeness and will delete them and know one will be told where I live etc!

That's it for now folks tune in again for some more ramblings by a1girl!!! LOL ;o)

Lost cause....

RK not responding so need to give it up as a lost cause! He was just a big flirt without the balls to follow through - his loss. Got to be strong and no bbming him and wait for him! Stupidity I gave in yesterday and got busy will ping lata and then he is on fb so really busy! I know he is on duty tonight so no bbm so see what happens tomorrow! Pissed off yes I am cos I do like him and if he pings I will respond (more fool me)! Just need him to take me on that drink and see if there is something there! I know I am being illogical as I know his job is demanding and that rugby be stuff starts at weekend so he would be busy but he only needs to find a few hours for a quick drink! ;o)

Gonna keep smiling and have a little patience!

Done it again....

Why do I always fall head first into things??

RK didn't chat yesterday and guess what pinged him and he said sleeping! Think being fobbed off! Need to give it up as a bad job! Yup do like him but obviously he has had a change of mind cos I sense he does not want to talk to me.

It was gonna be difficult juggling the two but to be honest SP is just sex and I know no future in that and a part of me was hoping that RK would be something more! Hey what is is so no pinging unless he messages first!

Waiting.....

Waiting for two things this week with one being easier than the other to deal with!

1. Interview - have it next Tuesday for the job I applied for. Need to practice which means learning the bullshit I put on the application! Not sure that I want the job anymore but hey will see what happens. That's the easy waiting ;o)

2. RK to invite me for a drink - I am having to resist the urge to ping him! I have everyday last week so this week no pinging only going to respond when he bbm's me!! This is gonna be sooo hard basically fancy the pants of him and have made it plain enough that I will say yes if he asks me out. He keeps saying he still wants to take more for the drink but that could just be a ploy! I am gonna have to play hard to get! It works with SP as he has been messaging me all week as I have been very quiet and not messaging him! Too busy trying to get RK hooked lol! SP soooo wanted me to say I needed a shag but I wasn't gonna do it! We would have met this week but period has arrived! He is busy next week - funny that! He days will have to be week after half-term which means if RK ever asks me out I am gonna have to juggle! That's what u get for supporting the education system.

Anyway that's It for now off to continue waiting.................